Something My Mother Told Me…

“I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.”

Well, momma may have been quoting E.B. White, but she still lives by these words as if they were her own. I can’t even begin to describe my feelings about this quote or about this woman.

Some of you may know, and some of you may not know, that I have recently made a very tough and emotional dating decision. The relationship was filled with miles of laughter and many feet of smiles and in the end I grew a lot because of the boy. I never have regretted my choices in that relationship and I never will because I experienced some of the happiest and best moments with him. And even during the lows, I still was learning. This is how I know we did things right. We challenged each other and when the challenges ended for me, well, here I am, looking back on it all. Learning from hard decisions and forging new paths.

My mom (and dad) were here through it all. Dad, I’ll write about you one day, but for now, here’s mom’s belated birthday post:

Mom, you taught me to lead, follow, or get out of the way. Through that I have realized that neither you or me choose the latter two choices. We are always leading, even if it goes unnoticed, or if our leading is enacted by empowering others to lead.

Me mom and Lauren

You are my shining star, my sun during the rain. You make me want to improve the world AND enjoy it at the same time.

This quote that I found on your wall today describes the journey that I have been on since the day you welcomed me into your life:

“I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.”

I think E.B. White had something wrong; I think you can do both. And that has been my path in life. I have never done what is easy. Instead I have always chosen whatever choice makes me a better person, what makes me happy, and what will (in the end) help me out in my quest for a better world.

Heading into Student Affairs is my small way of trying to improve the world. I will one day have a big impact on a few people, which is much better than having no impact on a million people.

Thank you for supporting me (financially and emotionally) as I sort through the choices that fulfill and better me. One day I will have a little girl that looks up to me as much as I look up to you.

And she’ll look up to you as well.

Thanks, momma. For the 8 am phone call of support. For the 11 pm text messages of love. For the emails full of good deals and discounts so I don’t get bored. You’re the best.